heh..wtf are you talkin about?
I am fed up with everything but life in general. I've experienced many worthwhile relationships, great friendships, and have had a family to support me constantly up until now. Yet, I feel as if something just isn't right, like I'm missing something, though I do not know what. At this moment I just feel as if I am on a little secluded island of unknowing.
I might as well say a little about what has happened lately. I was at a party not so long ago, maybe 2 weeks at most, when this feeling started happening. I was completely shit faced, and all I remember is passing out on the floor. Next thing I know I'm home in my bed, buddy comes over later that day, tells me I tried raping this girl I know, total what the fucking fuck moment. Fearful that I will go to jail for next week, nothing happens, someone from the party just spewing off shit trying to get me jailed. Most friends abandon me because they think I'm a bad person now, kinda in a whatever fuck you mood so I accept it. Present time, drunk or baked every other day, not a care in the world, but still feeling incomplete.