u sound pathetic, pm me I got a site that might help u.Originally posted by Inactive UserSup HB. Been a while. Just thought I'd drop by and see how everyone's doing.
I been feeling pretty horrible lately. My first love and I broke up and I can't move on for some reason .
What's worse is that she's prob. going out of state for college so the chance of us getting back together is 0%
My grades this semester weren't too great because I had so much on my mind. (Trying to transfer into a better school too)
My "best" friends back stabbed me trying to sabotage my relationship (which they did) so basically I have no friends other than my friends from HS but I only talk to them on Xbox live since they all went out of state for college.
Can't get a job anywhere, literally.
I commute to college so making friends there is basically impossible since most people know each other by dorms. Plus im an introvert which doesnt help.
Since it's winter break I stay home and do nothing... literally.
I just havent been happy with my life honestly since my ex and I broke up (which was about 3-4 months ago)
That relationship tore my whole life apart.
I feel dead, literally. I havent felt alive for a while and I dont know... I really dont know what to do anymore.
However, recently I've been feeling a lil empty and unsatisfied, i mean i was having fun meeting girls and new people every weekend but even drinking gets repetitive.
Two weekends ago i went to this bar with a couple of friends (didn't feel like going but my buddy convinced me to help him get laid that night), i also had the intentions of just hooking up with a dime then bouncing asap. But I ended up meeting a beautiful girl that night. she came with a couple of friends but she looked done for the night, I creeped her and saw that she was sitting alone trying to stay awake from the alcohol. i saw my opportunity and offered to buy her some water rather than a drink. we hit it off and ive been talking to her non stop ever since, we got coffee on a separate occasion just talking about life and what we want to do in the future. Its a little difficult meeting her because I live in a city outside of Seoul, but that hasn't been too much of a problem as of yet.
She's 4 years older than me, works as a fashion designer and is fully independent. Tbh I always preferred older women, they don't play no dumb games and are more experienced. I'm a 3rd university student taking a break from my studies, I'm already starting to simp hard for this girl but the problem is I'm leaving korea in 6 months to go back to school. I feel like me and this girl got a real connection, we like the same movies, music, etc. I played my cards proper with this girl and she has all the real qualities and values I want in a girl. I'm on the verge of pursuing but I've been trying to hold myself back, was thinking about pulling the trigger recently and see where it takes us but i got a feeling it isn't going to end well 6 months from now. I don't want to make any promises to her I can't guarantee.