I know u ♥♥♥♥♥s will say that the only person who can change me, is me, but I can't do it.
Something in my mind is forcing me to detatch and dissacociate to the point where I don't care, even when I fucking should care.
I see that everything is abandoning me and I am letting it go out the window, I am watching everyone drift away from me and I am watching them go out the door.
I feel like I'm going crazy. Whenever I say something that I feel isn't phrased absolutely correctly, I will rephrase it, re-arrange the order of words in the phrase, replace words, introduce new structure to the phrase/sentence, whisper it, until I feel it is perfect, and even then, it nags at my mind. It is seriously worrying me cuz I never had this compulsion before.
And what's more is that I am for some reason imagining conversations with people I know. Weird as fuck and I never done this shit before.
I am also extremely depressed. Not just sad. Like I feel tired all the time even tho I sleep more than 12 hours a day, I don't enjoy anything anymore, and I just have this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness and worthlessness and I stopped going to school and shit.
I feel like all the pressure put on me by others, and by myself is gonna cause me to have a legit breakdown.
So how do y'all cope with shitty feelings and sadness?