Okay so my girlfriend and I broke up on Friday.
It started on Tuesday when I told her that we had to talk; for the past two weeks I felt as though I was putting in a lot of effort and her, none. So we talked and she decided that she wants to stick together rather than break up and do everything in her power to make this work. We live two hours away from each other and see each other once or twice a week.
^ this bothers her. She asked how long we would do this for; like two years before we get a place together? She sees that as a long time to be in a long-distance relationship. We're both 21 and love each other more than anything in the world.
So on Friday I brought things up again because I still didnt feel 100% about how things were. She was still cold (I think it was all in my head) and she decided that she wanted to break up while we still are on good terms. She says that she still is in love with me but the distance is too hard for her.
I havent talked to her since then and I am so depressed. I wanted to marry this woman. Before we started dating we were best friends; in one day I lost the love of my life and my best friend.
Also if I never brought these things up, we would still be together. She was my world; and now its gone.
EDIT: I just don't understand. I know that she loves me so much. She told me that I was her first true love and that will never change, but then how can she live without me? I can't live without her. She's all I think about.
That shit is mad hard, and I feel for you, but honestly she sounds like she isn't very ride or die and is struggling between wanting to have the ideal feels and the feels she actually has. Two hours and seeing each other once or twice a week is hardly long distance. Your post makes her sound all fickle and shit, I say free yourself and eventually bag a chick who is more stable and grown and thus sure of herself. Feeling shitty over a female is some shit you can move on from, most important thing is to not let it get in the way of your daily routine.
People fall in love and fantasize about having a life together, gotta keep in mind a lot of that is just romantic fantasy. When a love is lost there is opportunity for a new love to arise. I thought about having a life with my last girlfriend, I loved her for four years. We broke up, I met a new woman and don't get me wrong, the last girl was great, but this new one is amazing in whole new ways. Shit is refreshing to have new experiences and feels so just keep that in mind when youre down.
Edit: word to whoever said never let a woman become the center of your universe. That shit is unhealthy, and don't be fucking with females who make you the center of your universe either fuck committing to someone who doesn't have their priorities right. You can be very in love and maintain the independence to prosper as an individual if you have your mind right.