Because I was fat, I felt the need to use stimulants to not eat for days at a time, I lost 100 pounds in 1 year..I have, seriously thought of suicide on a daily basis for awhile now. After ODing i have felt like i've died / other ideas or delusions from drug psychosis/withdrawl come into my head on a daily basis, little things trigger these and can induce horrible anxiety/dysphoria. Being homestuck, friendless, girls ect. just add to the pain. , cutting out everyone except the ones who want to help you get where you want to be is good.
I recently got a good job and have been clean for about a month, its a struggle but everyday it can get better if you try or at least go through the motions. I just hope i get many more days now, if no one likes me it doesnt matter.
FOR AWHILE I WOULD ONLY COME ON HB CRACKED OUT AND ALL MY FITS WERE GOD AWFUL.
I dont blame HB for making me feel fat, but jokes never made me feel any less of a fatass.