i need to learn how to be outgoing, i feel like my natural reserved quiet nature is really the only thing holding me back from being successful.
I study art, I know most of you will be like wtf, why would anyone ever go to school for art? well ive always been into it and ended up getting a max scholarship to a top art school in the world so i figured why not. now im in my junior year, and i know what the fuck im doing, i know i can make top notch shit that could show around the world and that big collectors will buy. I even have some secret family connects with big critics and other major figures in the art world.
heres the thing tho, i am mildly socially retarded lol. Ive pretty much always been a quiet kid, at least most the time.
growing up i had a best friend from the age of 4 til i graduated highschool. he was basically the exact opposite of me, loud, couldnt shut up for his own good at times,lol. anyway i pretty much just became friends with whoever he became friends with over the years and ended up with a solid group of like 15 really close friends by the time i was 18, all without really having to put any effort in socially, it just kind of happened. i mean i made some friends myself but you get the idea. shit was cool, but i knew i had to learn to make it on my own, so i went away to school.
i had met this kid at a pre-college program before my senior year, and we ended up going to the same school, so he hit me up and we ended up dorming together. hes the same type of person as my friend from home, outgoing and can talk to anyone. now we've lived together for three years and pretty much do everything together, except everything pretty much goes through him, he always wants to be in control of shit and im extremely laid back and apathetic so i pretty much just go with it, which sort of works but im still not really learning how to make friends for myself. at this point im just sick of feeling like a tagalong and really need to learn to be independent and shit. im getting kind of depressed about it which i feel might be half the problem :/ if im going to reach my potential, i have to learn to network for myself, this is very important for any job but i think especially in the art world. its All about who you know, ya know?!
long story short, i have to learn to be independent/outgoing, have any of you gone from very quiet and reserved to outgoing?
there were actually some instances where i was outgoing, like when i was with close friends or just certain classes for whatever reason i would come out of my shell, and when i do that im actually really funny and smart, but it doesn't really happen often anymore for whatever reason, maybe depression, idk. anyway i know i can do it because ive done it before, i just need to figure out how to do it all the time, if that makes sense.
im not just talking about like overcoming social anxiety, (i don't think i even have social anxiety, its more like social apathy) i want to be like my friends who can make connections with anyone at any time, ja feeeellz?
all advice is welcome.
make fun of me too i dont care, just make sure you're actually funny.
