jacobserver is heartbrokenIt’s 5 am, and I’m laying in my bed for the first time in two weeks. I was hoping it would provide more comfort than it is. To be honest, I felt more comfortable on a thin blanket atop of a grassy hillside in Dunsmore Park with my girlfriend in my arms. As I crossed the bridge into Peoria, I felt a strange feeling take over me. While I was returning home, I should have felt excitement, relief, joy; but instead I felt sadness. It didn’t hit me until right then exactly what I had left behind today. Peoria is dead to me, and is taking a little bit of me with it every day. I really do need out.
Today has been one of the most draining days I’ve ever had. Happiness, sadness, anger, frustration, confusion, stress, sleepiness; all took over me at some point. It was my last day in California. I had only been there for 2 weeks, yet it felt like home to me. I’m going to make it my home soon. It’s everything I was hoping it would be. My plans to spend all day with Catherine didn’t work out, but I did still get to see her. The 3 hours we spent together were some of the best I’ve ever had. Just laying, arm in arm, in a nice park on the grass. The sun hitting our skin. Bees buzzing around our open root beers. Absolutely nothing else mattered in those few hours. It was surreal. I felt something then that I never have before. I love Catherine. I’m not ashamed to admit it to everyone. I want everyone to know. Who cares if we’ve only been talking for 2 months? I felt it the moment I first saw her, first held her hand, first hugged her, first kissed her. Everything is perfect with her. She is seriously the most special thing in my life. When I walked her home and kissed her goodbye, I was a wreck. I hid it pretty well, but man was I out of control with emotions. So was she. She shed some tears, and I did my best to calm her down. I made her a promise, one of the most important promises I’ve ever made; one that I will no doubt keep. I told her I would come back for her. I will do anything it takes to have her in my arms once again. And as soon as I wake up, I’m going to start working on that. Because nothing in this town matters to me, nothing can bring me the joy and happiness that she can. I can’t even imagine what soldiers feel like when they are deployed with a newlywed at home. It was the most difficult thing ever having to say goodbye and part ways with Catherine after two weeks of spending time together. I would rather be homeless in California, than live in a mansion here in Peoria. No amount of material possessions can ever match the way Catherine makes me feel. She really is the most special thing in my life. I hope for everyone’s sake, that they can find someone in their life that makes them feel this way. She is everything I have been looking for, and I’m incredibly lucky to have found her. I’m not letting her go.
Dead. dat underage gf lifestyle