i was at this pond by my house, cool serene place. i was watching the ducks and i felt bad for this mother duck because she only had 2 chics left. obviously she had more but they had either died or eaten. then i realized people are a lot like these ducks. survival isnt guaranteed. sometimes i feel guilty when i think about how much i have and how much i spend casually. but why should i feel bad? my life isnt guarenteed, im in this struggle. who knows if ill make it to be 30, and here i am feeling bad for everyone i meet. what if i died tomorrow and all i had was guilt. and that cant be healthy. makes me think of what kind of issues i have if i feel bad for everyone. some superiority complex or something.
not like i can get happier than anyone else. buddy in africa getting a cold glass of water prolly feels happier than i do buying some clothes.
ok lil b
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