Went in for a scheduled check up doctor offered a prostate screening, I didn't decline. He felt a lump and suggested I receive an Trans rectal Ultrasound.
I had a rather large tumor........
This is probablly the part where you are expecting me to tell you something inspirational from the bible.
Well I am not. When I told my Pastor of the situation he talked to me about the story of Job and how he went thru trials and tribulations. And how God is love to those who love him.
Right when he said that I replied, "I love the Lord, those who love one another do not pass each other harmful forms of cancer."
Of course he refuted my claim.
But it made me think.
The God of the Bible is not all Love.
HE IS A NARCISSISTIC CULT LEADER THAT USES THE THREAT OF HELL TO GAIN FOLLOWERS.
I AM DONE WITH RELIGION
I SPENT HOURS TRYING TO CLEAN UP THIS FORUM FOR THE LORD AND THIS IS HOW HE REPAYS ME?
I WENT ON COUNTLESS CHURCH RETREATS, BIBLE STUDIES, YOUTH GROUPS WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, SHIT I TAUGHT YOUTH GROUP WHEN I WAS OLD ENOUGH........
AND THIS HOW THE LORD ALMIGHTY THE MAKER OF HEAVEN AND EARTH DOES ME?
well now that I am done venting....
I have decided I am from now on going to live life the way I want to and not worry about sin and going to hell. Because clearly the one who decides who inhabits hell does not care about me.
I AM NO LONGER SOULJA4THELORD I AM SOULJA4TRUTH, that you only have one life, and you can waste it giving into a narcissistic cult leader or enjoy it to the fullest.
I have 3 weeks before I begin treatment, they will also check if the cancer is in its early stages However from the Biopsy reports and the TRUNS my doctor has suggested that the cancer has spread to my Seminal Vesicles,
OR WORST CASE SCENARIO it is advanced and has moved to other areas of my body.
In those 3 weeks I will be living life to the fullest.
If I can get a good deal on a camera I will take snapshots of my next 3 weeks adventures as I stare death in its face.
I would say Pray for me guys........
But that doesn't seem to work.
So fuck it just get this thread up to 2 pages so i can feel good about my life on Hypebeast for once.