I was with her for 3 years.
We broke up 2 months ago.
Things were rough for me at the time she left.
To keep things less cluttered, she left me after my friends funeral, the same day,
I needed her, she wasn't around, i pushed her away.
She kept telling me i didnt respect her choice to not see me anymore.
I kept telling her i needed her to support me right then.
She wanted time alone to figure herself out.
Said it was my fault she fell out of love with me.
Her schedule is 7 hours of school everyday, (bio major)
I either cook for her or bring her food by the time she gets home,
she falls asleep. repeat.
I became psychotic, went through fb posts, etc etc.
We start fighting, all the time, i want something, she wants nothing.
Almost get fired.
Start taking xanax to sleep.
Find outs he hides FB posts from me when she goes and eats out with her guy friends.
Tells me in her tumblr that im the only one she ever really wanted to have sex with and she didnt plan to date.
9 days later she hopped up on someone else's dick.
Now they are "dating"
her friends taht talk to me, told her i was dating someone (which im not)
Last friday I od'd infront of her house (moment of weakness)
her family got involved, dont want me around her.
She points the finger at me making me look like the villian.
Asks all my friends to talk to me, intead of coming to me herself.
Your boy was a mess, blacked out on bars and wrote a will.
She was in the living room with her new guy and close friends and watched me collapse.
Finally, enough has happened between us, that the bullshit outweighs the love i had for her, Even in the darkest and most dismal light, i still saw hope in us.
Enough is enough, i have no choice but to walk out of her life, back into mine.
I always believed in us, I refused to ever give up.
I deserve better, so im walking out.
Although i've pushed her allt he way out of my life.
I still look at our relationship in a beautiful way.
It was still amazing during, after was a mess.
Find out today my friends listen to what i say and turn to her and tell her.
Enough. Is. Enough.
If she wont be there through your struggles, when your crazy, when your at your lowest. Dont ever expect her to be there.
Even if you are there for her in all those times. I gave this woman my complete love.
Sometimes, when shit happens, it all hits at once.
Yes its unfair, but pick yourself up and walk away.
If i find her at my doorstep, begging for me back.
I can't say i wont take her back, i cant say i would.
Their exists only one constant in our universe, change.