Fuck, where do I start. It seems like every girl I'm with, I lose interest in them fast as fuck. Like, when I'm away from them after I've seen them or something, I feel bleh. Like do I really want to be with this girl? But I can't stand to go more than 2 hours without messaging them & need to see them like 3 times a week. This new girl I'm with, I was crazy about her in the beginning. I was comfortable around her from the start.. but now I feel like a nigga don't need to be with anyone. Like idk If I'm just a bipolar ass nigga or wut. Like my ex, I always used to break up with that bitch 24/7 over the dumbest shit because I lost interest in her & wanted to fuck with other girls. But when she got tired of my shit & left me, nigggaaaaa. I caught myself singing Ray J - One wish & all that other simp shit. Shit hurt bad. I've never missed someone so bad in my life. Now with my current girl it still seems like I'm bipolar. Like, I want to be with her but not be with her at the same fucking time. Like if she was to break up with me, I'd be okay with it it feels like. But Ik how I am, I'll be all emo & shit. I'm starting to think I'm not a relationship kind of dude but yet I was just bitching about wanting a relationship a month ago. Shit got me all fucked up.
I'm exactly like that. I even get bipolar like you do, like damn I miss her and twenty minutes later, I'll be like shit, I need some new interest. I'll feel lonely, find a girl, and find myself in a relationship like I'll ask myself, hold up, why did you ask her out? For me, I believe it was rushing into these relationships. I never really got to know these girls, I'll maybe hang out with them a few times before asking them out but nothing on a one on one type of shit, where I really got to know her. Her goals, values, etc. You might think you like someone and feel comfortable with them, but you're just tricking yourself and that just ends up bad. I don't know if you rushed into the relationship you're in but next time you think you're comfortable with someone, just double check yourself my dude. I've been single and fuckin' around with girls for about five months since my last relationship and I've enjoyed myself. Maybe you're just not ready to settle down or whatever, but get your shit together before you go crazy simp over these girls and lose yourself.