November 4, 2009 @ 09:43 PM
THiZZ

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Read this on a different forum thought it was crazy...

Hey all,

To be honest, my main reason for coming to this site was because I wanted to make a confession to people that might be a bit more understanding and open minded.

Basically, I am a pedophile. Before I explain, I can tell you that I have tried getting advice from other places around the internet, but the only responses I get are stuff like




YOU SICK **** I HOPE YOU DIE
GO KILL YOURSELF
I was abused as a kid, people like you have ruined my life!
Jesus loves you!! You should ask him into your life, he is your best friend
That's so sick, you need to get help man
I HATE YOU


That kind of ****.

I am a 20-something guy, I am reasonably intelligent, don't abuse drugs, socially I am a little bit introverted but otherwise normal, I am reasonably good looking, did OK at school... and have been a pedophile for as long as I can remember.

I was very sexual at a young age, before I was ten I was entertaining fantasies about girls etc. As I grew up, I never really stopped being attracted to children. A lot of people think all pedophiles are sick, deranged child molesters, but that just simply isn't true. I am not sick and deranged, and I wouldn't molest and rape a child any more than I would molest and rape a grown woman. I hate child molesters as much as you do.

I am still attracted to mature women, so I am not an "exclusive", as it is known as in the pedo world. I have never considered raping a child, even though I have had numerous opportunities should I have been inclined that way.

Basically the way it works is if you see a girl who you think "aww cute", I basically think the same thing except I get the same feelings from that as I do from looking at a particularly nice looking sexually mature female.

My reasons for posting this is are as follows: I simply cannot go to see a psychiatrist. This particular avenue is permanently closed for me. I have the utmost, unshakeable belief that there is no God, and that if there was, there is no reason to think that he would care about your or I, so therefore asking me to come to Jesus will not help me. I was brought up as a very strong Christian.

I am also pretty addicted to child porn. Before you get completely disgusted and angry about this, let me explain that there is two different types of child porn: there is the type often referred to as "child modelling" and there is the really sick abusive stuff that actually involves sexual abuse. There is a particular child modelling agency from Ukraine that, a while ago, basically advertised for "child models". Upon application, parents were told it would be nude modelling. The children modelled nude, the parents were paid, the kids weren't sexually abused as such (although, yes, they were being exploited).

That is the kind that I find myself addicted to. I have seen abusive child porn (CP) and I found it repulsive and disgusting. I cried to see kids being hurt that way and felt dirty and disgusting for weeks after. I have contemplated suicide quite a few times, especially afer looking at CP.

I just want some advice. Does anybody here have the same kind of problems? I'm sure there must be. A lot of people don't realise how widespread pedophilia is. I can absoluty guarantee without any doubt that somebody you know has pedophile tendencies.

I have considered coming out of the closet but with society's view of pedophiles, it would basically be social suicide.

Please help, if you can. Has anyone here beat addictions? I am resigned to being a pedophile, I can't help the way I am, but I want to kick my addiction to CP because I think the exploitation of the children is immoral, although I don't think nude child modelling is by definition abusive. The pictures of the girls show them smiling and laughing. You would have to see it to understand I guess. I know looking at CP is wrong, but I can't help it. It's horrible, like being controlled by somebody else.

I know most people will label me as a filthy disgusting piece of ****, but please, I didn't choose to be this way. I recently saw a post on an anonymous message board (some of you might know of it) that said:

Person A: I just saw a picture of scantily clad young girl, and I got turned on. Does this make me a pedophile?

Person B: Yes, it's likely you have pedo tendencies.
Welcome to Hell.

That sums it up. Welcome to Hell.

Thanks all. Please don't respond with hate messages. Even if you were abused as a kid. Blaming every pedophile for what might have happened to you is like a woman blaming every man because she was once raped.

Thanks for reading and sorry for the long post.

~ Dusko

(PS: I am more of a hebephile than a pedophile but still have pedophilic tendencies)
November 4, 2009 @ 09:45 PM
JARE

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Thats pretty fucked up.
November 4, 2009 @ 09:50 PM
stillbornkid

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November 4, 2009 @ 10:23 PM
mrnogoodnick

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Long story short
We see the first pics, dude sees the second pics...













November 4, 2009 @ 10:23 PM
THiZZ

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LMAO that third one had me in tears...

-THiZZ
November 4, 2009 @ 10:32 PM
Nitsuj

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Lol@thosepics.

WWW.SEQUENCE.US

November 4, 2009 @ 10:32 PM
ᴊᴜᴀɴ

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Thats pretty fucked up.


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November 4, 2009 @ 11:28 PM
heeennry

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lol that last one is pretty graphic

I had taken the words out of his mouth and filled it with fart.

November 4, 2009 @ 11:49 PM
WadeFromPhilly

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the kid continues to play with the toy car lol
November 4, 2009 @ 11:55 PM
FROADS

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That is some crazy shit B
November 5, 2009 @ 12:10 AM
tapemanpl

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scrolled by the first two, when i got to the third one i just completely burst out laughing. completely surprising
November 5, 2009 @ 02:05 AM
turbo95eg6

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What a fucking creep... Now please excuse me while I go masturbate to 13yo girls in the jailbait thread.
November 5, 2009 @ 02:22 AM
soulamazing.

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What a fucking creep... Now please excuse me while I go masturbate to 13yo girls in the jailbait thread.

Lol'd.
November 5, 2009 @ 08:26 AM
Hellah Fresh

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long story short
we see the first pics, dude sees the second pics...















lol
November 5, 2009 @ 05:11 PM
no1collector

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He was not "born that way".

You can be born gay or straight, but you cannot be born as a pedophile. That's like saying, "I was born an alcoholic". He can help it, but he's just too afraid to visit a psychiatrist.

You should tell him that pedophilia is a psychological disorder, not a biological one.

What a dumbass.
November 5, 2009 @ 05:45 PM
Long

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Hes 20 something and is addicted to Child pornography?
Ridiculous. Going to the internet is the number one worst thing ever to announce you're a pedophile. This man needs to be thrown in jail, Hes gonna be someone's bitch once they hear what hes in for. >sad
November 5, 2009 @ 06:36 PM
Jim Jardashian

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Dont talk about yourself like that. I don't like self loathers.
November 5, 2009 @ 07:52 PM
THiZZ

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Yea the mod's got his IP address and reported him to the police...

-THiZZ
November 5, 2009 @ 08:53 PM
thenorthside

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Those pictures were hilarious, but when you think about it, you can tell things like that with some kids who've experienced it. Like my moms friend a while back had a child, he kept putting his face in his fathers crotch area when he was scared, and the stepfather would look around like "stop, stop...." On some pedo shit.

Comes to, a few years later when I'm older, I came to understand what was going on, the dude was raping the little boy, but I heard they killed him jail (nice!)

Since I'm having a kid in January, I've grown to become a bit more sensitive to the issue, and I can assure you all, if anyone ever sexually assaulted my son, I would indeed, no holds barred, kill the person, and I will enjoy it... Possibly even tape it.


what kinda ?!?!?... thats horrible.suprised

9 to 5 is how to survive, i ain't tryin' to survive. i'm tryin' to live it to the limit and love it a lot

November 5, 2009 @ 08:55 PM
Beaner

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Those pictures were hilarious, but when you think about it, you can tell things like that with some kids who've experienced it. Like my moms friend a while back had a child, he kept putting his face in his fathers crotch area when he was scared, and the stepfather would look around like "stop, stop...." On some pedo shit.

Comes to, a few years later when I'm older, I came to understand what was going on, the dude was raping the little boy, but I heard they killed him jail (nice!)

Since I'm having a kid in January, I've grown to become a bit more sensitive to the issue, and I can assure you all, if anyone ever sexually assaulted my son, I would indeed, no holds barred, kill the person, and I will enjoy it... Possibly even tape it.


Then you would be a murderer, which would make you just as disgusting as whoever assaulted your kid.
November 5, 2009 @ 09:00 PM
P$C

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that third picture is so fucking wrong.

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